aching feet and breaking back

i have never craved for a foot massage as much as i am yearning for one now. woke up this morning with aching feet and i could hardly move my body. think it was the accumulation of lack of sleep on saturday night and all the excitement that was balled up for yesterday's 40 Days of Purpose Launch.

saturday was a long day of preparation. spent the whole morning and early afternoon doing last minute preparations, designing powerpoint slides, designing mini posters, adjusting timelines and schedules, relooking at to-do lists, picking up the bulletins from the printers, getting my mini posters printed. practically ensuring everything i had to do was done. it was the uphill of the stress level... it's when you think everything is going fine, then you realise you missed out on some minor details. but i came to the point to tell myself: leave everything in the hands of God. what will go wrong will go wrong, no matter what i try to do. so despite the fact that i didn't finish all the mini posters i planned for and some other minor stuff, i just let it go and went to church and get ready for everything there. it is never too good to be so much of a perfectionist. there would never be perfection. what you might think is perfect is not in the eyes of some others. what others accept as perfect would be a far cry from your own expectations. it would just be too much work trying to figure out what perfection is. as long as we have done our best and we did it in the right manner, that would be doing our best.

it was much more comforting to see everyone getting excited for it. people were getting serious with practices. people were getting ready with last-minute discussions. the worship team was busy practising. the sunday school teachers were meeting and rehearsing. the campaign team met to deliberate on last-minute decisions. and the willing hands who were there help us transport all our barang barang to dbs auditorium. it was heartwarming to know that everyone played such a vital part in this event that does not belong to us (but the Lord). everyone has been such a blessing...

night came and excitement peaked. i watched the vcd twice to make sure that the timings i took down was correct. i edited some of the annoucements and pastor's script. i ran through the whole programme in my mind to make sure i didn't miss out anything. i sharpened pencils till i ended with blisters on two of my fingers (it was then that i realised the bliss of an electric sharpener which i didn't have). and i couldn't sleep. lying in my bed, i tossed and turned and my mind kept working. i was in the state of "i need to get to sleep!" because i had to be up at 6.45am on sunday morning. slowly... gradually... i fell asleep. i reckon it was 3.30-4am.

the next morning was a blast. despite the fact that i didn't get enough sleep, my eyes could hardly open at 6.45, i decided to fast over breakfast and i had to rush to dbs by mrt, i was so filled with joy! i was beaming pretty brightly (quoted from some people who commented that). when i arrived at dbs, i found out something. quite a few people couldn't sleep the night before either... wenhao... joo ching... and a few more whom i can't really recall. but we all had smiles on our faces. amazing yeah?

the launch went on as scheduled (5 minutes past schedule, but who cares?!). everything went fine. there was music. there was singing. the was the video. there was food. there were people. there were happy people. there were happy people registering for the campaign. that's enough to make me glad. all i asked from God was that there were no injuries, no unhappiness, no undone to-do items. and that's what He provided for.

at the end of the whole thing, everyone heaved a breath of relief. it was over, but not quite over. it was only the beginning and the excitement will be surging over the next 6 weeks.

some people did come up to me and patted my back (which was kindda aching) for the success of the event. but i thank God for the humility He taught me. i am only His event coordinator. my boss up there did not allow any mistakes, and all glory to Him!

one event down, two more to go! the next event would be a relatively small-scale event and a collaboration between the ministry leaders. i'll just be a liaison, so it should not be as stressful as this. but the final event gotta be a blast! it's the celebration sunday! the closing of the campaign! it's gonna be a party! (hmm... so what should we do? *pondering*)

here's a word to all those who played a part in the launch yesterday... whether you played an active part in the execution or you did your bit in bringing people or you were there as a sign of commitment, thank you! i am grateful that God used you in a special way.

in the midst of me running the event, i hope i have not stepped on anyone's toes. if i did, i greatly apologise for it. sometimes i fail to see what i do wrong. therefore i need forgiving brothers- and sisters-in-Christ to graciously point out my mistakes before i go around stepping on other people's toes.


weather today: super sunny