perfect dreams in an imperfect world

have you woken up in the morning and run through the events of the day? at the same time, you started conjuring up images in your mind of what you hope would happen during the events throughout the day. being unrealistic people, more often than not, we dream perfect dreams. how nice if this would happen, followed by that, and ending off with this. keyword here: IF.

i do this so often. i see dreams all the time. i am a dreamer. being very visual by nature, i love to see images in my head. it helps me remember things, helps me connect incidents, people and things, allows me to practice my creativity. but all this fail when i put overated expectations on people around me when things don't go the way i hope it would. my dreams come crashing to the ground, and people who know me will know that i don't take disappointments very well. then i go into the state of "why didn't it go the way i wished?" sometimes i get out of it pretty quickly. sometimes it takes a little more time. sometimes it lingers in me for a substantial period.

thinking through what i have been going through these few days, i am starting to come to a conclusion why i am becoming like this. i know too much. i know what is going in people's lives. i know how their days went and how they are feeling. focusing on the positive and happy occasions, i start to imagine myself in their shoes. how wonderful if it was to happen to me. IF again!

so now i find myself drowning in the dreams i created and it is about time i start pulling myself out of it, remembering that dreams are met to motivate and not to destroy my life. move on, but don't stop dreaming!